Starting Anew

This is the first post on my new site, katyslifestory.wordpress.com.  I hope you join me there for future posts.

Sometimes, in life, you just have to start fresh.

I don’t have a problem with OurSimpleLoveStory as a writing platform.  When I first created that blog, I intended for it to continue being the place where I shared my life.  Lately, however, I have been feeling like it is no longer the direction I want to go.  I guess it’s better to explain if I start from the beginning.

When I was a kid, I was horrible at keeping up with a journal.  I have several notebooks where I started and stopped writing all throughout elementary and middle school.  At least I know I have them somewhere, not really sure where they ended up.  All I remember is that I couldn’t keep up with them, and that I was pretty hard on myself if I missed a day, week, or month.

In high school, I wrote poetry instead of a journal.  I mean, it was that emo, depressive stuff.  I got a few compliments on some from friends, but my teachers all said it was horrible.  I did get published, if you count that book that published pretty much anything sent in, and you had to buy the book and commemorative certificate stating that you were published.  Oh wait, I did get published in a church bulletin one time.  So, yea, I’m a published poet.  :)

It wasn’t until college that I even knew about blogging, thanks to my best friend.  Actually, the way I found out was she was writing about me in her blog that her friends from back home would read.  It wasn’t always the greatest stories, but then, I didn’t always act like the greatest person either, and my first encounter was actually requesting her to take down a particular post.  Still, I was inspired to try the blogging thing on my own to vent my own feelings.  We did have an understanding to never bash one another in blog form, and I have tried to maintain that philosophy even to this day.  However, I do have to say, I vented a whole lot more of my feelings and thoughts back then, than I ever have done with more recent blogs.   And, consistency-wise, I may have written one or two entries in a month, depending on what was going on in my life.

After I got married, blogging became a way to connect to other people, whether in real life or online.  However, now, blogging was more than just writing home or to your friends.  It was no longer the venting platform that I would sometimes visit.  Now it was a professional networking system.  And there were rules.  Consistency was key.  So was content.  Pictures were necessary.  Being funny never hurt.  It was a place that could lead to revenue, so keeping a professional attitude was mandatory.  All of these things to a girl that seldom wrote anything consistently in her whole life was, and still is, intimidating.

I have to say, I’ve gotten better.  Working from home gives me ample reflection time, but I will be honest, I do filter my thoughts.  Not necessarily because I want to vent, but because sometimes my thoughts are not coherent, and I ramble all. the. time.  However, trying to follow all these rules, sharing things everyone else was sharing (not saying that sharing recipes or trips or reviews is a bad thing.  I get a lot of inspiration from those posts), they just made me feel superficial.  I wasn’t sharing myself, I just felt like I was sharing what I thought everyone wanted me to share.

And that’s where I am now.  Through the month of May, I mentally wrestled with whether or not to continue blogging.  I didn’t know if it was for me.  I mean, I like writing, but I want to write the way I want to write, not the way I think I’m suppose to write.  And, the funny thing is, when I do write those few meaningful posts from my heart, those are the ones that get the most response, the most interaction, the thing I’m actually looking for in this online community.  Genuine connection.

I picked this title, Katy’s Life Story, because it feels less like I’m trying to build some professional wall, but instead just trying to be myself.  It’s a reminder every time I come here to write, that I’m writing for me to my friends both in real life and online.  I’m hoping to write a post at least once a week at the very least to at the start.  And I’m inviting you to join this journey with me, not because I’m going to be inspiring or motivational, or have great tips or recipes, but just because I’m a girl wanting to connect with who you are, where you are.

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